See you in a year...

So, I've been away a while - I'm sorry. It's a hard road to travel, the post cancer, recovery-process year and sometimes it's hard to deal with, hard to face. Have also had another health set back - but I am now recovering from that well and wanted to carry on blogging.

4th March 2008
Next apppointment then, bring it on!! Knowing there's not going to be any bad news from Mrs Carmichael makes going to the appointment easier. Also got my Husband and Mom with me so it makes it slightly easier. Mrs Carmichael's there to greet us, she's smiling that lovely smile and I relax a little more - can't relax too much, still got my guard up!

"So young lady, let's have a look at your wound then."

I scramble up onto the examination couch. "Gosh, you do heal well." The stitches were whipped out in seconds flat. "I am pleased, it means you can move onto the next part of the treatment."

Hmmmm, more questions I feel, more researching, more emotional torment to come.

"I want to refer you to the oncologist now, Dr. Allerton - she will discuss the rest of your treatment with you."

"Will I have to have chemotherapy?" This question has been in my mind since I first found out about the invasion into my body.

"Well, as your cancer is triple negative, it won't respond to any of the other types of treatment such as Herceptin or Tamoxifen, and as it is also aggressive, grade 3 breast cancer, it may mean that chemotherapy, as well as the surgery you've just had is the main treatment."

Great. Another load of crap to deal with.

"But, don't forget, the tumour was only 12mm and hasn't spread to your lymphatic system so the results were really the best we could of hoped for."

Ok. I suppose it is good news when you think about it....

"And because your cancer wasn't hormone responsive, there is a real possibility of you having IVF with your husband to store some eggs."

Ooooh, that sounds more like it!!

Mrs. Carmichael doesn't need to see me for a whole year!! Why so long? Will be kept busy by the oncologist she says.... little did I know then how busy it would be!!